Tuesday, November 24, 2015

5 Years.

It's true what people say.

Marriage is not easy.

It takes time and effort and hard work. Every day.

Lately, mine has been struggling (not every blog post is going to about roses and happiness).  My blog is real. Its about real life. So if you're looking for roses and fake expressions of grandeur you've come to the wrong place.

Today, is my fifth wedding anniversary. My husband and I have been together for over 10 years total.  We have two amazing little monsters that I am so proud to be their Mommy.  But, its a lot of work. I'm feeling the strain of doing a majority of the workload with the house and the kids. My husband works long hours and isn't home much of the busiest times of day.

I pack our next day the night before. I get up early to fold laundry and turn the dishwasher on and shower. I do all the pickups and drop offs and running. Dinner. Bathtime/bedtime routine.  I grocery shop and clean (obnoxiously - Thanks, Mom).  My home is never dusty or messy.  My bed is always made and our clothes are always put away. I work full-time. 

This little blog will be my momentary happy place to clear my thoughts and then get right back to my life.

Its exhausting.

We promised "til death do us part." And I try not to complain too much. I keep my head down and keep moving. If I stay busy, I don't think too much. I just do. I am a do-er. I will never step over a toy and not pick it up. Or fail to put my cup (at least) in the sink before I head off to bed.

Recently, my husband has been trying to be more cognizant of how hard I work. He's been trying to be more helpful. I'm not going to say it didn't take a major awakening to get it started. But, I am attempting to take these small steps as battles won. The war is not yet over. We have a long road ahead.

Here's to 5 more.